These times, they are a changin'

Do you know when you life is about to change? Really change, the kind of change that you remember all of your life.

I remember the day I moved to San Francisco. I was the first one awake. I laid in bed, looking around, listening to the sounds of my old home before anyone stirred. I remember that morning thinking - my life after today will never be the same.

I remember my first night in San Francisco. An almost empty apartment with the sounds of the city in the background; the sound of my steam heater and the wonderfully comfortable feeling in my new home, my first home. As a lay in bed, before falling asleep, full of hope and joy. I thought - my life as of today will never be the same.

I remember the day I broke up with my long time boyfriend Mark. I knew a change needed to happen, but I was not sure when or how. I remember the day he moved out. Tears, lots of tears, not of sadness but of relief. I was free. I laid in bed with my cat, again in an almost empty apartment and thought - my life after today will never be the same.

I remember the last day of my last job. It was tough, A few officers wanted me to leave because I had become to powerful in my position; the board president would not and could not have it that way. I had been raked through the coals for months. But on that last day, as I sat in my beautiful office. Heart heavy with the many many calls from well wishers, and the love of those who did not want me to leave. I found myself alone. It was quiet and very still. I became excited at the possibility of what could be. And at that moment I said to myself - my life as of today will never be the same.

When my daughter was born. That night. I laid in bed with this teeney little baby whom I have known for lifetimes. The one who held the key to my heart and my soul. It was still and quiet in the room, the lights were dimmed. I could hear the distant sounds of voices of the nurses at their station. I stared at my daughter with wonder and deep love. I took a deep breath and thought - my life as of today will never be the same.

I feel there is change that is about to happen. I am not sure when or what. But it is coming. I need to find my path once again, except this time there will be peace along the path. Maybe not peace from others, but peace within myself. Will I be moving, will it be my career, what will it be? Honestly, it doesn't matter does it. Because I know, that at the end of it - I will lie in my bed and think - my life as of today will never be the same. And it will all be good...