Thin skin vs Thick Skin - REWARD

I am wondering where my thick skin has disappeared to - I seem to be really affected by injustices, stupid and insensitive comments, etc. Deadlines, people complaining, etc. just grate on my nerves.

I am normally not like this.  

If you see my thick skin and my ability to tell someone to fuck off, or for that matter my productivity - will you please send them home. I am not happy with the new thin skin.  

Thank you, 

Di

For my sister Iris..

Says it all doesn't it?

When I was a kid...

I had this re-occurring dream that I would walking through a meadow near a dense forest.  As you go around the forest there was this huge house, old and mysterious.  Behind the house was an old fashioned fish tank that was a few stories high and in this aquarium was this strange sea creature that barely fit into the tank. This strange creature would make me uneasy. 

This picture is exactly what the forest and meadow looked like.  Imagine walking up to the forest and going around it to find the house...

Another hauntingly wonderful place...

If someone is speaking...

your only responsibility is to listen...

Don't try to come up with a response.  Do not try to tell your story. Do not contemplate what you will say next.  Do not start thinking about how you will solve their dilemma.  Just listen...

I am balanced...

Okay so if you do not want to hear about breast references then you can skip this post.  

So today is a good day - in spite of really painful feet and ankles (I walked with wrong shoes earlier in the week), a two day head-neck-back ache (due to walking off balance), and feeling really really tired I had a great day.  

Today I purchased and am wearing a balancer.  Yup I bought a professional quality bra-cutlet and who would have thought that a small piece of silicone the size of a chicken cutlet would and could make such a difference.  But it did and it does.  Today I feel balanced.  No, I didn't get back my perfect breasts - and yes they were perfect (I have always said so); I didn't find a way to hide that big scar but I am finally even.  I now look balanced in a T-shirt, a tight top, or a tank top.  I don't have to hide behind layers...thank you Nordstroms, thank you insurance company, thank you God... 

Other good news - my oncologist has given me the all clear.  After throwing a wrench in my progress and putting my life on hold the entire month of March - I am free to move forward on projects, work, life.  I am so happy.  I am happy because I know, not because I don't have to go through treatment - but because I can begin.  Exercise, nutrition, spirit, movement, my head space, finances, everything - I am looking forward to what happens from this point on...