Things have just been for me this past year.
My husband and I seem to be going in two different directions. We have no mad money. We still owe the IRS so much money. There are arguments all the time. My husband pulled a Mel Gibson late August. Addiction has visited my home quite a few times this year. Pretty much, to be frank, 2010 was pretty shitty.
So here it is 2011. I have more spots on my breasts and it has taken my oncologist about 4 months to see me - I had an appointment today, but I have the flu. There is no way I am going to the oncologists with so many getting chemo while sick. So I see him next week. I am trying not to dwell on them, and just have a look see.
Also, my gyn called me to advise that my pap was normal, but she noticed some endometrial cells that she needed to check out. So first a sonogram then a biopsy. Shit!
Knee is still out, ankles and heel still hurt.
SO WHAT THE FUCK IS ALL OF THIS ABOUT. I am only 50, not 90!
I have to take more control of my life - so here is what I did. I have found a therapist, Lucy, I adore her. I have called the IRS to say I want this taken care of this year. I have made all of my doctor appointments. I need to walk on the beach, laugh with friends, hang with my daughter, walk away from my husbands addiction and anger, declutter my home, my office, my head, my soul, lose weight...find the joy again.
More later...this girl needs more sleep. Hope this bug goes away soon.
